So I didn't get the job, but I feel relieved?

Had my interview today and I didn't get the job. I gave it everything I had, I answered the questions as best I could and looking back, if I were asked the same questions, I'd say exactly the same thing. Afterwards, I met a girl who was also being interviewed and had just completed her management on that ward, and turns out she got the job. They said they were looking for someone who had experience in working on that kind of ward, and as they could clearly see from my application I hadn't, why put me through the stress of an interview I had zero chance of getting?

Normally I'd feel upset and down on myself that I did something wrong, didn't do well enough or messed up completely, but I really don't. I think it's one of three things,

1) In my heart of hearts I never really really wanted that job. Having never worked on the ward and even though I read up on everything and prepared more than I've ever prepared for a job, and wouldn't change a thing I said during the interview, I felt relief when I got the call to say I'd not got it, so surely it's a good thing I didn't get the job, right? Whether I conveyed that across unintentionally I don't know, but I feel that I actually performed better at interview when I wasn't desperate for the job, as when I'm desperate for the job, I get myself all worked up and probably let the nerves take over.

2) It just goes to show it's not what you know, it's who you know. In which case, in reference for me not getting the job due to lack of experience, this limits the jobs I can apply for having only done placements on a limited number of wards (as has everyone, though different wards respectfully). So realistically me applying for a ward I've never had a placement on puts me at a disadvantage to someone applying who has been on the ward before (though granted that works both ways). None of which I don't think is 'fair' but that's life.

3) I'm simply realising that I'm a crap nurse.

It's only been 2 months since I qualified and although that isn't long, it feels longer and it's so easy to lose faith. I sometimes feel that fate can help, and if it makes me feel better believing that I didn't get this job because there is a better one more suited to me, then let me be happy believing in fate, that's not to say I expect people to come knocking on my door with job offers, I know I have to keep putting in the work in applications and interviews.

I really hope anyone who reads my blog, that is if anyone does (!) gets a job before or very shortly after qualifying, because it really does feel soul destroying getting nowhere.