It's Late and I'm Let Down

I know it's after half 4 in the morning, but I can't sleep and might as well blog.

I'm feeling so let down :(

Got an email this morning saying that 'due to unforseen circumstances' interview has been cancelled. Just my luck. Sods Law. Makes you feel like giving up.

I'm lucky I have the friends that I do, they make me smile. I went to see Harry Potter today (well...being 4.40am...yesterday) and my tears weren't just for the final ever part of Harry Potter, though most were, but I got the email just before I left to go to the cinema, so was feeling really shitty and took the chance to just have a good cry.

Oh well. Can't do anything about it. Must try to sleep now xxx

Politics

So, today I went for a look around the ward I have an interview for as I've been told, it gives you more a feel for things and makes you less nervous about interview - which for me would be a good thing!

The ward is fantastic, it's really old fashioned, you know, cartoon paintings on the wall, tiled floors, high ceilings - fantastic. The staff seem really friendly and it seems almost an identical kind of ward to one I've already done a placement on, and loved, so all in all, it's an absolutely perfect first job and if I were to be offered it, to say I would be over the moon would be the biggest understatement ever! It would beat the feeling of winning the £166 million rollover Euro lottery, not that I won that (!) but I can imagine how good that would feel, and this would be even better.

But. And there is always a 'but', the ward is so short staffed, they have the same members of bank staff regularly working full time hours, and of course and understandably the way the work climate is today, they too have applied for the job as it is a permanent position. So it's really a case of either the people at the interview giving the job to someone they know, has worked on the ward, is not a newly qualified nurse and will not take long for the CRB and all the checks to come through versus them taking on someone they don't know, who is newly qualified and needs all the paperwork completed. Hmmm, seems like there is only one choice really, doesn't it?

I guess I will think positive thoughts whilst also wishing for a miracle!

Graduate...

I was meant to graduate today, however could not afford to hire my gown (seriously - almost 50 quid?!) so did not attend.

Whilst it is a shame, itt can't be helped and as I've already done the whole graduation malarky before, it doesn't seem a big deal. Everyone that did go had a nice day so that's the main thing. Only one person in my child branch went, which seems a bit of a let down, but as we're all graduates I think that is why. Also, if we choose to carry on a complete the MSc which is only something like 20 more credits, that'll mean yet another ceremony. Personally I don't plan to go for the MSc, I just want to be a nurse...if someone will hire me! Ahh well, going to look round the ward tomorrow so fingers crossed, I make a good enough impression before interview!

Cautious...but excited

I've got an interview! WOO HOO!

I've never done a placement on that ward, let alone that hospital, it's not ideal in terms of getting there, there are probably loads of better people getting interviewed BUT I'm so happy I've been given an interview, I just really really want someone to give me a chance.

It's in a few weeks, I'm going to read up about the area and I'm going to visit the ward to get a feel for things, other than that I'm going to try not to stress and keep everything crossed! :)