Sad, but I love going in to work!

It's been a while since I last posted, but I've been so busy on my placement! I know it's sad, but I really love it. I look forward to going in to work, I wonder how patients and their families are when I'm not there, and I am enjoying it so much the time is flying! Seriously, I start at 7.30am but get there a bit earlier, and before I know it, I look at the clock and it's 11am, then I look again after dinner and it's 3pm then it's 6pm then it's home time at 8! I feel really really lucky that I've found something I loved and I'm not taking any of my opportunities for granted!

I know some people I've been talking to have said 'the novelty of early morning and long hours will wear off' but I'm not going to think so negatively! At this very moment I am loving it and I hope it will stay that way! Also, not only have I been on the wards I've also had some fantastic chances to experience others things! I went out for the day with a specialist nurse earlier on in the week, and today I was in theatre for the whole day!

First up the specialist nurse, she was lovely and I learnt so much. I think mostly it was how other health professionals can work together as a team, for one common aim, and that is to help a particular patient. It doesn't mean massive things they do, but each individual seperate thing can make the world of difference, and as they get to see their patients long term, I can see how it can be a veryt rewarding job. I'm not sure if it is something I would like to do, not once I qualify, but maybe later on after a few years on the wards. It's something to think about for sure.

Next is the theatres. I was in all day today and I loved it! I really thought I've be squeamish and worried about everything but I found myself getting really 'stuck in' quite literally! I was just expecting to be standing back and watching from a distance - which I did at first - but then they asked if I'd like to scrub in on the next operation so I could get nearer to the patient and see everything, then be the end of the day I was holding clamps and put in charge of suction, it was fantastic! I really enjoyed it and actually surprised myself as I wasn't put off by anything at all. It was really nice (although this sounds sick!) but it was nice to see all sorts of organs and body parts in the 'flesh' as it made them so much more real! I know that sounds daft but it really is the case! As for a career as a scrub nurse? I don't think it's really me to be honest. I mean don't get me wrong I really did get a lot from it, but I felt like the person underneath the covers, wasn't a 'person' more a 'body' and I much prefer the contact with patients on a ward, you see them as people, you get to know them, you can tell if they're not ok, you genuinely care for them, and I feel like I get a lot more from this kind of thing than from seeing them being operated on. That's certainly no disrespect for scrub nurses, nor surgeons, they all do an amazing job and they're very very clever people. I just feel it wouldn't suit 'me' and who I am.

Anyway, I'm going to have to finish there, I've been up since 5am and it's almost 1am the next day! I tell you, I appreciate my days off SO much more! I really make an effort to do things when I'm not in work, that said sometimes it's nice to chill out in the garden with a nice book (oh how I miss that!) especially as it's been so nice, sunny and warm here lately, apparently, I wouldn't know I've been stuck in a hospital with it being dark when I set off in the morning and dark when I get home! Oh well, I can honestly say I wouldn't change it for the world!

Butterflies...

I start my first placement tomorrow and I am so ridiculously scared. I keep feeling excited one minute then almost sick the next. What if I'm crap? What if I hurt someone? What if I'm not cut out for this? What if I don't understand anything? What if, what it, what if?

I guess I could worry myself sick over it but I'm trying really hard to keep a positive head, hell I've worked really hard to get this and now I have I'm scared of it! Someone slap me!

Anyway, it's a 13 hour shift, and I'm going to to try and get an early night tonight but I probably won't sleep as I'm so scared! I just wish my first week was over and I could be a bit more relaxed!

Sorry this is going to be a short post, I'm off shopping as I still haven't found any shoes that are comfy enough for all those hours I'll spend on my feet! I've been looking for ages but I guess that's what I get for having size 8 feet!

Anyhoo, I just noticed I have some followers, thanks guys! Hope it's not too boring reading this and feel free to leave a comment!

Better go and hit the shops! I'll let everyone know what happens when my first week is over, hopefully I'll not make a complete idiot of myself, but I'm making no promises!

P.S. I finally got my essay title sorted yay!

P.P.S. I got the all clear from MRSA, which is what I needed to work for the trust I'm working for, so I'm glad about that! Not all trusts do MRSA checks (I think they should though!) but as something like 1 in 4 people carry it with no problems, it's good to be checked and been clear!

P.P.P.S. Am thinking about doing a year in Australia once (if!) I qualify, sounds good and think I need to look into it very early on!