It's been a while!

I apologise for not blogging sooner! I've been busy but that's no excuse!

So what have I been up to? OK many many presentations, researching 'Evidence Based Practice' (a.k.a. bane of my life), doing lots of practicals which I really enjoy more than I thought as usually I'm too scared to get up and do stuff (!), lectures which are intertesting...lots!

This week I got my first Hep B jab as I couldn't get it til I got clearance from the occupational health people. It's ok going on a placement with just one dose so I'm not too worried about that. I've managed to ring up my mentor for my first placement and she sounds absolutely lovely so I'm really pleased about that!

We had a lecture last week about how we do 6 weeks of lectures then a week off then 6 weeks placement then a week off continuously so that students don't feel stressed or feel like leaving - at the time I thought 'I'll never feel like that' but seriously, the lecturer was right, this week I've just been having a bad one. I know for a fact I would never leave, I'm a little fighter and it's been such a dream to get a place, but, to be honest I've been feeling really worried about it all. Maybe it's only just hit me that I'm going to be a nurse with responsibilities eventually, and so many points made in lectures have made it look like they're trying to put us off...and I can see why it would some people, but I'd never leave or at least I hope not! I'm sorry if this makes no sense, I'm tired yet I can't sleep, cos I'm just worried about a lot of things.

On a more positive side I got my uniform today, but I felt a bit numb about it as, like I say I'm worrying about everything! Really kinda spoilt the experience for myself as I was looking forward to getting my uniform as I'd feel like a 'proper' nurse. Anyway I can just about get it on but I don't look good! Never mind!

I think I'll go now as I'm tired and need to be up early tomorrows seminar on injection technique! I really hope I'm feeling more positive in the moring, I'm going to force myself to smile more and hope that it makes me feel better!

Happy!

I'm feeling ultra happy today, I don't know whether it's because it's snowing like crazy and looks so pretty, or just whether I'm generally feeling pretty contented with life! Either way it's a nice feeling!

So what have I been up to? Loads! I've been so busy, if I'm not in lectures I'm reading as much as I can or writing up notes...it's never ending BUT I LOVE IT! I think my last blog was a bit moany, and I don't moan! I decided that instead of worrying about being so behind compared to everyone else, and instead of thinking I couldn't do this, I decided to kick myself up the backside and just put my all in to it! If then, after spending every spare minute I have studying, and I still feel behind, then I'll ask a tutor or someone in my group for a bit of help! I'm just going to think positively and hopefully it'll work!

Anyhoo, so far since I started a mere...3 weeks ago, I've learnt loads, from anatomy to child protection acts, from models of nursing to taking manual blood pressures (hard I tell you!) but I'm really enjoying it! I'm getting itchy feet a bit as I really want to go out on placement and see it all in practice! I think I'll learn so much more from doing it, or seeing it, than I ever will from just reading about it! I can't wait! I'm not even bothered about early starts and long hours, I want to enjoy every second of it! I still feel like I'm in a dream and someone will pinch me and tell me I'm not really going to be a nurse! I know I'm wishing my life away but I can't wait to become a fully qualified nurse and get my dream job working with neonates. Still, I'm sure the 2 years will fly by and I'll be missing my student days!

That's me done, I'm half way through writing up some child protection stuff, and whilst I know it's important to know this, it's really upsetting to read some of it, so I thought I'd let myself have a little break and make a blog!

Catch you later!