Most Perfect Job in the Whole Wide World

I was looking on the NHS side, as I do, generally 4ish times daily, and I came across an advert which not only asked for NEWLY QUALIFIED nurses, but there were TWO full time jobs. Also I have been on the ward before.

Not only have I been on the ward before, I bloody loved it. Those of you who have read my blog since day one, will recall my first ever placement. This is the same ward. I loved that placement so much. I literally wanted to stay there forever. I LOVED IT!!!

I haven't got an interview yet, it got put online the 7th, I saw it straightaway, closing date 14th, interview date 30th.

My whole theories of it's not what you know, it's who you know and people who are 'insiders' hold more chance are coming into play. I loved that ward, I made a good enough impression my mentor told me she'd give me a job (she's on the sick now from what I've been told...), I saw people from that ward all through my training and they still remembered my name, even when I was working on other ward...this is the ward I truly totally fell head over heels in love with nursing. The other student nurses I was with on placement didn't like the ward, for some reason, but I loved it. I loved the ward, and it was the ward in which I compared every other placement against. I love this ward and would never dream of ever getting a job on it.

I don't have an interview yet, closing date is not here BUT if I can take into account the fact I was on placement here, made a good impression according to tutors, nurses on other wards, doctors...I should hopefully get an interview. If I were to get an interview, but was not offered the job, I think that would be it in terms of getting a nursing job. If I got an interview on a ward I loved, made a good impression, everyone knew me...blah blah blah...and I didn't get one of the jobs, then I think I would be too devastated to go on with this nursing thing. One of the girls on my course got offered a job on this ward from a trust wide interview, at the start of the year, despite her not working there before, well she did...kinda....it's a surgical ward and she was on the surgical day ward, but took 15 of the 18 shifts in the placement off sick...so if she can do it, anyone can...no?

I want this job more than anything. I know the ward, I know the conditions, I know the procedures, I know the staff and they know me, I know that I would love it.

If I don't get it, I really will fall apart, for I really can't see any reason why I don't stand a good enough chance? That's not to sound big headed, those who know me know I am not arrogant, far from it, but I mean, I can't understand what would prevent me from making a good enough case to give me one of the jobs?

PLEASE I want an interview and I want this job more than anything I have ever wanted.