So much to say, so little time!

Hey! Ohhhh I feel like I have SO much to say but literally never get any free time in which to do it!

Ok so two major things I can talk about. My FIRST ever nursey interview and my FINAL tutors visit.

FIRST INTERVIEW...

Was ok, I was nervous as always, tried my very best, gave it all I had but still didn't get the job. I could say it was never *really* my job to have, or I could just say it was a nice first interview, of which I got experience from and will build upon, but either way I got some positive feedback and even if they just said nice things to make me feel better then that's ok. Just was really hard to go back to the ward the next day as a student knowing I'd been rejected...hmmm sound sad but when I found out I'd not go it, I resorted to a nice hot bath, some cheesy episodes of Glee and a good cry. That said, I was right as rain the following day (til the nursery nurse hugged me!) but I was ok and have been since. It's just made me realise that I LOVE the ward I'm at and so want a job here, but even if none now, I will keep applying til I get a job here.

My actual interview was good, they were so nice and I did all I could. I've applied for a couple of jobs since but, lets face it, I've fallen in love with this ward, I want to work here, I'll just have to keep trying.

Ok so second point, my tutor came for the last visit before I (if I) qualify and all I got was some good comments off my mentor which surprised me loads!

I feel now like I could actually be a nurse, I've pushed myself so far this placement, this whole course even. I've changed as a person and I've learnt so much about everything. The one thing missing is that I don't, as yet have a job, but hopefully soon that will change.

If I was going to pick one thing which I thought would be better, that would be the other girls on my course. I feel as though, apart from a couple, I've been so let down by them. I feel like I've always been there for them but am feeling pretty much alone when I'm not needed. Friendship is meant to be a two way thing.

Whatever, I don't care, I'm nearing the end of this journey of training to be a nurse and I am SO excited. I'm so happy I could literally burst. I have some essays to do, and whilst the tutors aren't being much help I'm feeling that I can still do it.

NOT LONG TO GO!!!