It's been a while!

I apologise for not blogging sooner! I've been busy but that's no excuse!

So what have I been up to? OK many many presentations, researching 'Evidence Based Practice' (a.k.a. bane of my life), doing lots of practicals which I really enjoy more than I thought as usually I'm too scared to get up and do stuff (!), lectures which are intertesting...lots!

This week I got my first Hep B jab as I couldn't get it til I got clearance from the occupational health people. It's ok going on a placement with just one dose so I'm not too worried about that. I've managed to ring up my mentor for my first placement and she sounds absolutely lovely so I'm really pleased about that!

We had a lecture last week about how we do 6 weeks of lectures then a week off then 6 weeks placement then a week off continuously so that students don't feel stressed or feel like leaving - at the time I thought 'I'll never feel like that' but seriously, the lecturer was right, this week I've just been having a bad one. I know for a fact I would never leave, I'm a little fighter and it's been such a dream to get a place, but, to be honest I've been feeling really worried about it all. Maybe it's only just hit me that I'm going to be a nurse with responsibilities eventually, and so many points made in lectures have made it look like they're trying to put us off...and I can see why it would some people, but I'd never leave or at least I hope not! I'm sorry if this makes no sense, I'm tired yet I can't sleep, cos I'm just worried about a lot of things.

On a more positive side I got my uniform today, but I felt a bit numb about it as, like I say I'm worrying about everything! Really kinda spoilt the experience for myself as I was looking forward to getting my uniform as I'd feel like a 'proper' nurse. Anyway I can just about get it on but I don't look good! Never mind!

I think I'll go now as I'm tired and need to be up early tomorrows seminar on injection technique! I really hope I'm feeling more positive in the moring, I'm going to force myself to smile more and hope that it makes me feel better!